Had a pretty rough betrayal from a friend today. He was someone I tried to confide a few pieces of information about some of my victimization history. Instead he went off and started saying abusive, and cruel comments. I have been working hard on myself and got a boyfriend, lost weight, gained muscle and trying to work on me stuff. He didnt care for that and claims I "have an enemy in my friends" and "enjoy it while it lasts, thats part of the set up". Obviously he intends to make me destroy my owngoodness with fear. Trying not to fall for it. Instead did 250 push ups, told my bf I love him. Had a nice meal with a friend. Went to work. And tried just having a good attitude.
I am getting ready to watch my rapist get re sentenced too. And I have been experiencing a slight rise in harassment as I made it known I am going to the court hearing.
Its the only justice I will get. The other person who watched, has gotten a promotion in his career and sigh I just don't care. I hope he has grown a bit and realizes that what he watched was awful. Though I have a feeling he never will "get it".
I have the right to love,a nd joy and to work hard for merit. I am a good person with beauty and working hard to achieve inner victory against this Legion.
Once you hear the details of victory, it is hard to distinguish it from a defeat.