when i get back to normal –
wait – was there ever a normal for me?
if so, how far back would i have to go?
and would i even recognize “normal”
if it hit me in the face?

OK then . . .

after i'm all better –
uh – will there someday be such a time?
when everything is fine, and if there is,
how long will i have to wait
until it actually comes true?

How about . . .

once i am over this –
but – is it really something you can “get over?”
or is it something that stays with me
for better or worse, making me both:
a part of me – for good?

Or maybe . . .

after i've recovered,
when i am restored,
once i have healed,
gone past survivor –
to thriver . . . ?

So . . .

how do you say it
and what does it mean
and when will it be
and how will I know
when it is enough?

Maybe . . .

this is
as good as it gets . . . ?

lee
07/02/2014


Edited by traveler (07/03/14 12:29 AM)
Edit Reason: tweak
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"the scariest thing about abuse of any shape or form, is, in my opinion, not the abuse itself, but that if it continues it can begin to feel commonplace and eventually acceptable."
- Alan Cumming, "Not My Father's Son"