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#466450 - 06/10/14 06:25 PM Pretty amazing T session last evening...
tomboulder Offline

Registered: 05/30/14
Posts: 8
Loc: Boulder, Colorado
My therapist combines art with talk therapy, and it's actually pretty amazing. I don't like to draw during our sessions because I can't draw for shit, but almost every time I do, something important comes out of it, and sometimes I don't like that either. Last evening, he asked me to draw the 7 year old who is still sharing my body. I have a photo of myself at that age, so I thought that is what I would probably "try" to draw, but instead, I drew a picture that more resembled a holocaust survivor, just super skinny, pathetic and filthy. I had to tell the story of this kid, and I said that he had been locked in a closet for years with no one taking care of him. He had been abandoned just like me after the abuse. About that time, the session was over, but my T said he wanted to ask me one more question: he sad, "Are you crying?" You see, it's very hard to tell when I'm crying. I said, "yes", and then the tears really started to flow. He sat with me for another 15 minutes, then gave me a big hug and let me go. On the drive home, my stomach hurt, and I finally figured out why - it felt like I'd just had surgery and the stitches were pulling. I went to bed about an hour later and immediately fell asleep. That never happens - I usually toss and turn for an hour or two.
"Some people are oh so smart, and others are oh so pleasant. I much prefer the latter." (paraphrasing Elwood P. Dowd from Harvey)

#466452 - 06/10/14 06:31 PM Re: Pretty amazing T session last evening... [Re: tomboulder]
NoSimpleMachine Offline

Registered: 06/05/14
Posts: 223
Loc: SF Bay Area
That sounds wonderful. Really glad you made a fresh connection that deepens your understanding. Every one of those steps will bring you more empowerment, more understanding, and more peace smile
If I know only one thing it's that everything that I see
Of the world outside is so inconceivable often I barely can speak
Yeah I'm tongue-tied and dizzy and I can't keep it to myself
What good is it to sing Helplessness Blues, why should I wait for anyone else?

#466453 - 06/10/14 07:31 PM Re: Pretty amazing T session last evening... [Re: tomboulder]
Robert1000 Offline

Registered: 06/27/12
Posts: 453
Wow. Way to go. Keep healing!

#466500 - 06/12/14 12:12 AM Re: Pretty amazing T session last evening... [Re: tomboulder]
kcinohio Offline

Registered: 06/06/12
Posts: 512
Loc: Ohio
Great share about your recovery process in therapy. Good to read.


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