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#464108 - 04/15/14 09:03 AM I quit
bey Offline


Registered: 01/28/10
Posts: 437
Loc: canada
*trigger for swears*

Fuck fuck
Fuck this shit
Fuck this fucked up life
I quit

I try and try and still I'm stuck
A stupid useless nothing fuck
I'm broken and shattered and can't be fixed
There's too much bullshit in the mix
But still I try and try and try
And let it hurt and even cry
I try so hard to just be me
Work my ass off at home and T
Think about things I don't want to know
Try my best to let it go
Say so many things I don't want to say
I try so hard to be ok

But when there's one thing that could make me break more
I drive two hours to her front door
It can't get worse than this. It can't.
And then I go and - - -
Fuck.

Fuck me, fuck everything
I'm so fucked
From the minute I was born

So fuck it all
Fuck this shit
Fuck this bullshit life
I quit.
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#464113 - 04/15/14 10:48 AM Re: I quit [Re: bey]
traveler Offline
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Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3959
Loc: settling in the USA again
ben -

maybe you need to take a break from trying so hard and just BE for a while. we all need a rest once in a while. i get the impulse to just shut down, but please don't quit entirely.

lee
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"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"

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#464117 - 04/15/14 12:02 PM Re: I quit [Re: bey]
bey Offline


Registered: 01/28/10
Posts: 437
Loc: canada
thanks lee
yeah, i will think about it. and no, i won't quit entirely.
ben
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