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#459928 - 02/01/14 04:47 PM Re: I'm here. I'm scared, but I'm here. [Re: Landscape]
Suwanee Offline
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Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 1339

Edited by Suwanee (02/21/16 06:59 PM)
I've got this life
And the will to show
I will always be
Better than before

#460744 - 02/14/14 10:55 PM Re: I'm here. I'm scared, but I'm here. [Re: Landscape]
Adam A Gedman Offline

Registered: 08/12/13
Posts: 188
Loc: Canada
Hey Landscape

I am sorry for reason be here, it is a heavy burden we bear. But many hands lighten the load, so we all share the burden together and and the task becomes a little easier.

I have not been around much In a while, so I feel a little in catch up mode.
So if you'll forgive the late welcome, I'd like to extend that welcome to you as well.

Keep well
Presence is the key, for all we have is now.
All we ever have is right now.

Formerly Adam A Gedman (AKA - A damAGed man)

But you can call me Kevin

Toronto Mini WoR - May 2014

#462640 - 03/15/14 04:39 AM Re: I'm here. I'm scared, but I'm here. [Re: Landscape]
peacemaker67 Offline

Registered: 05/28/12
Posts: 45
Loc: WI
Hi Landscape,

glad you took the step. You need to move forward as you feel things "fit". You will find your way...sounds like you already have a plan in mind.

Here if it seems you ever want to talk.

-Love is love when it is free; love is love when others don't feed on you as a "need". If we reach one person with betterment, and in turn that one reaches another, what power we have to change the world."

#463483 - 03/31/14 05:06 PM Re: I'm here. I'm scared, but I'm here. [Re: Landscape]
On The Fringe Offline

Registered: 09/21/13
Posts: 326
Loc: Southeast USA
Thank you for coming in and sharing.

I hope you find your way here. It is a great resource and some very kind people.

It has helped me greatly.
I feel more like I do now than I did when I got here.

#473413 - 12/11/14 11:41 PM Re: I'm here. I'm scared, but I'm here. [Re: Landscape]
Landscape Offline

Registered: 01/31/14
Posts: 50
Loc: New York, NY
It's been about a year since I started therapy and reading these forums. I haven't posted in a long while, but I read on here just about every day. I know how much it means to have someone respond to your post, and so I promise to contribute more than I have recently.

Things are better than they were a year ago, and when I look back I know I've made progress. There is still so much further to go. I'm still scared sometimes, and I'm still trying to find my way.

I guess I just want to say that I'm still here, and I really appreciate that you are all here with me, even though I haven't said it very often.
WoR, Guest House 2016

"Since, my friend, you have revealed your deepest fear, I sentence you to be exposed before your peers."

#473416 - 12/12/14 12:48 AM Re: I'm here. I'm scared, but I'm here. [Re: Landscape]
JW1230 Offline

Registered: 09/13/14
Posts: 80
Loc: Ohio

I'm so glad that you are able to see progress and please know that I am glad that you are here for me as well. That's what it is all about! I too am scared a lot of the time, but not nearly as much as I once was. I am finally beginning to see that these tiny steps forward that I don't usually notice do add up over time.

Be well,

#473433 - 12/12/14 05:12 PM Re: I'm here. I'm scared, but I'm here. [Re: Landscape]
Bluedogone Offline

Registered: 07/03/13
Posts: 1132
Loc: Southern US
Thanks, Landscape, for the reminder that this isn't a solo act.

The fear, guilt and all the other stuff that go along with CSA seem just a little lighter when they're shared with others who know and have experienced it. I sure don't wish this on anyone, but it's sort of comforting to know there are a whole lot of guys who've gone through it, survived, and are making progress.
I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year:
“Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown.”
And he replied:
“Go out into the darkness and put your hand into the Hand of God.
That shall be to you better than light and safer than a known way.” - quoted by King George VI

#473490 - 12/13/14 11:07 PM Re: I'm here. I'm scared, but I'm here. [Re: Landscape]
Bardo Offline

Registered: 09/24/14
Posts: 321
We are still here! I'm glad this year has shown you some progress. The great beauty of this site for me is the 24/7 presence of so many brothers. brothers who (unlike mine), will never let you down! Keep us posted on your progress, and I look forward to hearing from you.

Through these fields of destruction
Baptisms of fire
I've witnessed your suffering
As the battles raged higher

And though we were hurt so bad
In the fear and alarm
You did not desert me
My brothers in arms

-Mark Knopfler

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