I have a funny thought for you. I just read this post, and loved it. It really struck a chord with me. I often feel alone. Really lonesome. Scared. Weird. Different. Isolated. Angry. I have lots of obsessions. I have a terrible fear of intimacy coupled with a tremendous need for protection. The boundaries I have are all ones I've established as an adult. The passive-aggression. The withrdawal. It's all there....
And yet I'm extremely caring. Extremely empathetic. I have never been judgmental of others. I'm very accepting. I like to help people feel part of whatever group I'm in. I'm gutsy. I have an insane tolerance for pain. Basically, the only pain I don't like is the emotional kind. Physical pain is no bother. I certainly don't mind leading, but I'm also not hung up on it. Plus, I actually have pretty good boundaries today.
In other words, I feel so blessed that I've been able to transform the experiences of my life (including the traumatic abuses of my childhood and the many, many ensuing traumas and bullshit) into who I am today. I'm not defined by what happened to me. I am who I have chosen to become.
And I'm proud of that.
All of you have been important to me, too, and I want to thank you for it. Earlier today, I was feeling pretty bad. Pretty much in need of some connections. And this site has helped. I'll be back again soon, I'm sure.
Oh, and it's funny to me that I responded to this same original post several years ago. I had forgotten. And yet as I was reading the comments, I came across my own! From like three years ago!
God bless you guys. Take care, and hold onto any piece of peace when you find it.