Thank you all for your advise, things have been up and down due to both of us but better than when I last posted. I am really struggling with trying to trust him again slowly and am not sure how to start this healing process.. Any suggestions anybody has would be great

PS- Happy to report my H started his meds again last week and started seeing his T ;-). I'm so proud of him for this and love him dearly for the great man that he is underneath all the pain xox