when I first came here I told nearly everyone I talked to that normal had been my goal all my life. I just wanted to be like everyone else. and I dont know how many times I heard this comment."normal is just a setting on the dryer" and they were right. normal is different for every person, each experience we have had ,good or bad changes what normal might be for us. the others,the untouched have no idea of what it takes a survivor to process and so we can feel on the outside at times. but among the other survivors we hear " yea I get that, or I used to do that all the time!" that was a miracle for me when I heard it. I was NOT insane or going insane, I was not too weird,odd, or whatever. I was a SURVIVOR and my definition of what is typical is much different then those who have not had the experiences. not bad, and not better, just different. I hope that you can feel better soon man
Either I will find a way, or I will make one.