I e-mailed with a dutch helpline about chat counseling but it's hard to find a time that works. Might consider e-mail counseling instead. Who knows. It;s a start, i guess. I can't talk about this shit or even have to be in the same room as them so idk, this is the only option for now.
This is great news Sven. Please do is as soon as possible (you need any help available no matter is it trough mails, chat, phone or directly). And yes it is an important start and I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you to get involved and share all what you have and get support. It doesn't have to be one on one and in personal. You can and should ask them too for disocciation triggers, grounding and similar...
Keep us updated and please send that mail ;-)