My name is Chris and I am becoming a Victor over childhood sexual abuse.
Over the past several years, with the help of my amazingly supportive wife, I have started the journey to becoming a Victor. I have said the above statement in public, I have disclosed it to friends and family, and I have typed it in numerous emails and it is still a statement that brings chills to my spine...I have a long road yet to travel.
Along with a tumultuous twenty five years of denial, self destruction, fear and hiding my childhood has given me an extensive and almost complete wiping clean of my memory. While this seems to have 'saved' me from the monsters in my past, it has also robbed me of any of the good things that have happened in my life. I have come to understand that the only way past is through. The only way to get to the other side and reclaim the positive things in my life is to get through the things that were done to me. The things that were not my fault.
In starting this journey I have found that the more I embrace my past and the more I try to speak out and help others like me, the more memories (both good and bad) I get back. It is for this reason that I am both very glad and incredibly fearful of typing this here for you to read.
I understand the healing potential that a group like this can have. I know the strength that we can find together. Thank you for letting me be a part of your group.
Peace to you all.