Whatever you do, do it very, very slowly. Your stuff will just naturally come up as you are ready for it. Airing and discussing here is a great place to sort things out. I'm 64, and didn't begin to remember my father's sexual abuse until age 53, and didn't begin to remember my mother's sexual abuse until this year. Be very, very gentle with yourself. I think LOTS of discussion here is a great way to get your directional signals in order. Wishing you smooth sailing.
Divine Law is not judgment or denial of self truths. Divine Law is honoring harmony that comes from a peaceful mind, an open heart, a true tongue, a light step, a forgiving nature, and a love of all living creatures. Jamie Sams & David Carson, Medicine Cards