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#454128 - 11/17/13 11:44 AM Been away for a bit.
Lost Mountain Offline

Registered: 12/05/12
Posts: 47
Loc: Atlanta
Sorry I have not kept in touch I have been having a rough time of it lately. My T is great but when it came to discussing some hidden feelings. Things did not work out that well. On top of being abused as a child and raped as an adult. I grew up with my mom and sister,4 aunts 8 girl cousin,s. A big part of me felt feminine. I guess you could say I am an underclothes cross dresser on top of all that. Anywho my T is not at all familiar with this at all and when she started asking questions I felt dirty and ashamed. And thus I withdrew and isolated a did a little SH. I am suppose to see her this week and I hope and pray we do not mention the subject.

#454143 - 11/17/13 03:29 PM Re: Been away for a bit. [Re: Lost Mountain]
traveler Offline

Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3966
Loc: settling in the USA again
LM -

i am sorry you are having this difficult time. i just want you to know that your secrets are no "worse" than anyone else's. they are not ones that i have had to deal with - but i do not criticize or judge or condemn you for them. i am glad you felt free to share this - and hope you feel the support and acceptance here that lets you know that we accept you and that you are not alone.


PS - glad you came back!

Edited by traveler (11/17/13 03:30 PM)
Edit Reason: PS
"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"

#454150 - 11/17/13 03:51 PM Re: Been away for a bit. [Re: Lost Mountain]
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Registered: 10/09/11
Posts: 3792
Loc: South-East Europe
Hello Lost Mountain and welcome back!
I'm sorry to hear for your troubles. I hope you'll get well with yourself, there is no reason for you to feel ashamed.
I have had a lot of troubles with shameful feelings, still trying to learn how to accept my self.
I wrote one topic recently about shame. It was very important for me to learn that shame is result of interaction of two persons, not one, not me. I always have had idea that something is wrong with me originally and that I should shame because of it. Well it wasn't the case. I was shameful of me because I looked on myself trough someone esle's eyes.
So I'm very happy that you are here with us and that you are confident enough to share your intimacy.
Keep sharing!

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