By the way, for me REM's album "Reckoning" achieves a mix of pain and loveliness and loneliness and hope that I almost can't bear, and yet am compelled to revisit periodically. I listened to it obsessively after, when I was a kid, well, after the active abuse and before recovery.
It sounds like you've made some progress, Will. Congratulations. I bet it's good to have this music back in rotation.
I won the moment he hurt me, because he poisoned his soul, and I did not poison mine. I did not hurt anyone. He did. He was the perp. He tried to make me into a victim, but I became a survivor. Yes.