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#452754 - 11/07/13 06:15 AM my poems
victor-victim Offline


Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 6287
Loc: 𝒪 𝒦anada
THE TRIP
take a trip with me
through twisted history
and tortured memory.
a journey.
an odyssey.
escape from apathy.
travel through misery.
the agony and ecstasy of recovery
and self discovery.
develop dignity.
embrace empathy.
the brutal truth of honesty.
the road to victory.



these are my words.
some are recent, some are decades old.
different stages and moods that i have lived through,
during my life as victim and survivor.

some of these are still relevant today,
others are just pictures of past personalities.
reflections of my recovery.
sad and silly stories of my struggles.
twisted tales of my torments and tortures.

hope you enjoy.

please feel free to feedback.
in fact, i urge you to react, respond and reply.
i welcome ALL comments, compliments and complaints.



http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=488661#Post488661
i am His story

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=472697#Post472697
rule number one

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=487293#Post487293
baggage check

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=488353#Post488353
wake up call

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=491803#Post491803
the secret

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=479509&#Post479509
expresso manifesto

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...9471#Post479471
the art of exprexion

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=478707#Post478707
plan be

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=468196#Post468196
genesis revelation

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=474978#Post474978
confession

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=484692#Post484692
burden

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=472673#Post472673
emotional armour

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=473496#Post473496
science of conscience

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=481118#Post481118
solo soul

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=495448#Post495448
secret identity

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=495020#Post495020
watashi no kokoro

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=483036#Post483036
IT'S ALIVE!

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=481132#Post481132
into me see

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=481065#Post481065
reflex shun

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=483697#Post483697
trust and truth

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=473878#Post473878
happiness happens

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=473922#Post473922
good medicine

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=472589#Post472589
pragmatica

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=473077#Post473077
hIDe your ID

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=475411#Post475411
Decadence+Innocence=Existence

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=487338&#Post487338
SIT.REP=FUBAR

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=468660#Post468660
symbiosis=synergy

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=468326#Post468326
picture in a locker

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=472492#Post472492
super fish hell (shallowater)

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=473030#Post473030
famiglia fatalità fatica

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=473074#Post473074
die familie : der fluch : die flucht

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=471955#Post471955
corruption incorporated

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=479486#Post479486
extinct instinct

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=470487#Post470487
power trip

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=472670#Post472670
loose cannon on deck of wild cards

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=465068#Post465068
nothing personal

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=464379#Post464379
courage of a coward

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=459522#Post459522
friendshipping & handling

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=445228#Post445228
meganegativity

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=473803#Post473803
improvised improvement

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=455176#Post455176
falling

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=432554#Post432554
life in hell

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=475615#Post475615
c'est la vie d'un chien bâtard

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=433020#Post433020
great escape

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=433456#Post433456
overbored

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=433561#Post433561
believe

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=434295#Post434295
parannoyed

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=496199#Post496199
nightmarathon

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=434387#Post434387
mirrors

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=434805#Post434805
ups & downs

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=435313#Post435313
bad seed

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=461837#Post461837
toy solDIEr boy

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=474766#Post474766
purge the urge

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=435609#Post435609
big bang theory

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=483018#Post483018
evilution

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441089#Post441089
relativity

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=474521#Post474521
elementary

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441024#Post441024
love is...

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441557#Post441557
prisoner

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=489291#Post489291
anthropic animalogic analytic

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...8560#Post478560
castaway

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441489#Post441489
mon dieu

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=476910#Post476910
mon fiancé méfiance

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441510#Post441510
meaning of life?

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=477776#Post477776
brahmanda birthday

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441699#Post441699
in words, alas, drown i

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=488132&#Post488132
no sir, panic is a basic in a prison

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=442275#Post442275
transcendental medication

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=463678#Post463678
mantra

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=447557#Post447557
love is key

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=447786#Post447786
labour of love

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=454619#Post454619
freedom of obsession

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=454861#Post454861
ques?¿ons

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=454914#Post454914
resistance

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=455184#Post455184
get the message?

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=456785#Post456785
snapshock

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=456959#Post456959
more

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=460150#Post460150
cockroach

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=460149#Post460149
teufelskind

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=488115&#Post488115
papier tigre

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=488242&#Post488242
magister ludi

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=473956#Post473956
logomaniac

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=472622#Post472622
cross swords over cross words

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=479699#Post479699
the little self esteem engine that could

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=472680#Post472680
rave review rear view

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=475045#Post475045
vow

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=480286#Post480286
mordlust=lustmord

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=488215#Post488215
whoa! woe!

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=496137#Post496137
hen ni kawaru strangely changing 変に変わる

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=472601#Post472601
to what end?


all my poems.
submitted.

The world is full of suffering, it is also full of overcoming it. ~ Helen Keller

i spent a lifetime exploring and expressing passion and pain.
i did the research.
i give you the results.

Memory atrophies unless it is communicated. ~ Barbara Clow

proceed at your own risk,
with caution and without haste.
the mind is a terrible thing to taste...

Abandon all hope, ye who enter here. ~ Dante Alighieri

you can hear my story expressed in lyrics here.
explicit words set to aggressive music.
listen at your own risk.
Survivor Songs
www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=467658

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Victor|Victim

War
Love
Poetry

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#472585 - 11/16/14 06:54 AM fishing for feedback [Re: victor-victim]
victor-victim Offline


Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 6287
Loc: 𝒪 𝒦anada


do you like my poetry?
should i continue?
brothers, please talk to me.
i need to hear from you.



looking for love.
shameless self bump!
i need a shove.
help me over the hump.

looking for you.
i need your feedback.
give me your view.
get me on the right track.

-------------

a real appeal.
a genuine deal.
i heal, as i reveal,
and feel,
what i conceal.
c'est tres facile.

-----------


don't be shy.
just hit "REPLY".
write some $#!+
then hit "SUBMIT"

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Victor|Victim

War
Love
Poetry

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#474825 - 01/10/15 03:33 PM Re: fishing for feedback [Re: victor-victim]
OCN Offline


Registered: 02/05/13
Posts: 376
Loc: Western Europe
A big bump.. i think you're doing great in expressing yourself Victor! Please do continue! It helps me inspire creativity in myself, so your poetry is contagious!

Sincerely
Peter
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Trust me, you are worth it to love yourself!

I now know who I am - I've never been anybody else!

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#474832 - 01/10/15 04:56 PM Re: fishing for feedback [Re: victor-victim]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 681
Loc: Canada
Well I am Shy ...
but I won't be shy.
We've discussed this before ... you and I ... and you know I'm in your corner.
I hope this won't be seen as criticism ...
because it is sincere feedback.
Victor ... there's too much!
I find myself running through your posts at a gallop and if I don't instantly see a 'personal' note,
I gallop on. It's just too exhausting ... and a lot of the time I don't understand or it has no relevance for me.
Your heart is in the right place ... but your fingers are running amok ... :P
I'm risking offense in order not to be a hypocrite ... I had to say something.
I don't spend much time in 'Poems' anymore for the exact same reason you've posted this.
I'm sick to death of busting my ass making submissions ... getting over a 100 hits ... and not a single reply,
other than the regulars ... which is what ??? 6 ... 8 ???
I'd rather someone take a second and say ... "This is shit!" ... rather than get nothing at all.
Granted ... a lot of my stuff is shit ... but there is some good stuff there too that doesn't get acknowledged.
I do keep up and read everyone's posts ... but I only reply now if it touches me in a personal way ... if I have something to say that is significant for either the poet or myself.
I know that's contrary to what I've just said about getting no replies ... but one can't reply to everything ...
and sometimes I'd like to but don't know what to say ... so I'm guilty too ...
but ...
considering the few posts submitted by only a few of us versus the 100's of people viewing ...
it's pretty damn discouraging.
Everybody out there ...
SAY SOMETHING!!! ... at least once in a while.

((( v-v )))
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#474834 - 01/10/15 05:13 PM Re: fishing for feedback [Re: victor-victim]
myrlin Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 11/19/14
Posts: 21
Loc: Minnesota
Don't stop

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#474839 - 01/10/15 05:45 PM Re: fishing for feedback [Re: victor-victim]
victor-victim Offline


Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 6287
Loc: 𝒪 𝒦anada
this is my curse.
this is my crime.
verse after verse.
rhyme after rhyme.
i am a lyricist.
this i cannot resist.

thank you for noticing.
thank you for everything.


--- personal note -----------------------
i am pleased to hear my words have reached and touched other souls.
feedback is food to me.

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Victor|Victim

War
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#481135 - 04/23/15 02:48 AM Re: fishing for feedback [Re: victor-victim]
victor-victim Offline


Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 6287
Loc: 𝒪 𝒦anada
i fear and i crave human contact and intimacy.
acceptance, attention, approval, security.
to seek validation creates vulnerability.
i wish i could say i don't care what you think of me,
but sometimes i like to hear something from somebody.
you can be neutral or hostile or friendly.
all that i need is some feedback occasionally.
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Victor|Victim

War
Love
Poetry

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#481143 - 04/23/15 09:18 AM Re: fishing for feedback [Re: victor-victim]
GoodKiwi Offline


Registered: 01/30/15
Posts: 116
Loc: Luxembourg
Victor I have a little file on the desktop where I paste quotes from MS which help move me forward. You wrote many of them.

This one was about someone else but it really hit the mark.

family blood.
family ties.
family secrets.
family lies.

So true it hurts but in a good way.
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#481230 - 04/25/15 10:07 AM Re: fishing for feedback [Re: victor-victim]
kellticwarrior Offline
New Here

Registered: 03/10/08
Posts: 97
Loc: vancouver,b.c.,canada
Victor, you should never post here to look for validation. we all love to see feedback on our work. But please post for yourself and yourself only. and never stop until you deem it done.
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#481241 - 04/25/15 03:27 PM Re: fishing for feedback [Re: victor-victim]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 681
Loc: Canada
I'm still reading victor ... and trying to keep up ... and enjoying much of what I read.
smile
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