the weird thing about it is that i am an actor and a teacher - and normally have no trouble speaking at all. even in front of a crowd.
another thought that occurred to me is that maybe it is a reaction to having kept the secrets for so long. there was a lot of pressure not to tell anyone. and now i am breaking that taboo.
How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....