the weird thing about it is that i am an actor and a teacher - and normally have no trouble speaking at all. even in front of a crowd.
another thought that occurred to me is that maybe it is a reaction to having kept the secrets for so long. there was a lot of pressure not to tell anyone. and now i am breaking that taboo.
"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"