funny thing - i was panicking the night before going to WoR too - but because i was afraid that someone i knew would be there and that i would be recognized. not nightmares - because i didn't sleep enough to get to that level.
later i realized - if there was someone i knew there - they would be a fellow-survivor - and a potential source of support and understanding rather than shame and embarrassment. not a bad thing at all.
our minds can play funny tricks on us - and we often react in the guise of the injured and irrational children rather than as logical men.
How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....