Welcome Jason- and take a moment to appreciate the courage you have shown in signing up and Posting- taking brave steps forward and seeking both help us to recovery and reclaim our lives.
There are tons of resources here and n this site - make use of them at your own pace. You are in control of the process and choose the pace you proceed at.
My abuse damaged a lot of the way I see and relate to the world- repairing that damage helps me find joy and freedom and have a life worth living. My abusers are/ were very haunted by what they did. I know that. And ultimately they suffer - I don't have to.
Welcome to the better part of your life!
We have to take responsibility for what we're not responsible for.
�It doesn't matter where you've come from,
It matters where you go" Frank Turner