this was a very courageous step - and another milestone in your journey. regardless of whether or not you return to regular attendance/worship in the church, i believe that what you accomplished by voluntarily returning - has made - and will continue to make a huge difference in your peace of mind and well-being. you are living proof that we are not defined or confined by our past. it is possible to go on - getting better as we go...
thanks again for being here and for sharing your journey with us,
"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"