Now I'm concerned that they purchased my services for additional experiments.
Major "deleted" visited my home at least once that I know of. It was in about November after the summercamp. Did he arrange for me to be in more experiments?
My parents told me that I was to be taken to an ancient ear-nose-throat hospital in Washington DC for a tonsillectomy/adenoidectomy, even though I had that 10 years previously. We arrived at the depressing hospital. My parents put me through the doorway to the reception desk and left, almost as though they were ashamed to watch. I was put in a rickety wheelchair, probably dating from the civil war. I was taken to a bed.
During the operation I was under the impression that things were being done to me. I never understood. I was partially awake (patients with DID or MPD often have alters who don't respond to anesthetic properly-Some alters remain awake during operations-I was given extra ether to put me down). I have had the impression for a long time that I was sexually abused during the procedure. I think there was something else that happened. I think there was some kind of experiment being done on my head. I don't know what it was.
Afterward I felt sick from ether. I smelled it for 6 weeks. I couldn't talk properly. I could only talk in a raspy whisper. It didn't get better. It hung on for 3 1/2 years. My problems got worse.
The hospital is no longer there. The doctor was a wretched old man even then.
There is a book by Carol Rutz which describes a dangerous brain experiment done on her. I wondered if the same thing was done on me.A Nation Betrayed: Secret Cold War Experiments Performed on our Children and Other Innocent People
, by Carol Rutz
However, I've found a more recent book which seems to give information on experiments on children. It is:CAT'S PAW - HIDDEN CELL OF THE MK-ULTRA PROJECT
[Kindle Edition] by Richard Lawrence.http://www.amazon.com/CATS-PAW-HIDDEN-MK-ULTRA-PROJECT-ebook/dp/B009ZHQIRS/
I think the author (Richard Lawrence) is writing under a pseudonym and I think he has changed some details to protect the innocent. But it seems to be giving his own story. It also gives information on what was going on before he was born, like in the time when I was being "worked on".
I believe that the brain experiments he described are what I went through. He must have had another source for this information because he wasn't born at the time of the described brain experiments. So I'm not sure who told him this information. If he tells his source I haven't seen it.
In the early 1950s they (CIA and NSA) were trying to figure out how to control and understand human behavior. There are lots of names are given in this book. I think I was one of the children subjected to experiments. My name is not given in the book, although I believe my abuser (in the scout camp) is identified under a pseudonym (General James Damsforth). I believe the book quotes some things he said but gives him a different name.
My memories are a bit vague. I believed they sexually abused me (in the operating room). I think 4 guys did it. Then I was given more anesthetic and then they worked on my head. They were into doing experiments on brains. The book I just mentioned talked about injecting cells from all kinds of animals and fetal cells from humans, but other people too. They also worked on prisoners, etc. Many of the subjects (according to that book) died from it. I didn't die but it took me a long time to get over it. It has taken me a long time to figure this stuff out.
That morning, Gottlieb and Helms planted the seeds that launched America's longest range covert research project - a project that was to span decades, albeit under different names. Much of the research done by the Nazis was replicated to authenticate it. And, more. Much more. Convicts, alcoholics, beatnik artists, scientists, children andeven pregnant women were administered LSD and other drugs in hope of creating ESP and other special abilities.
Fetal cells from all manner of animals were implanted in the brains of newborn infants and children to see how they would develop.
Many of this latter group developed tumors and died. Some survived. So, more careful methods were devised to prevent the rejections and infections that so often occurred.
Colored text is mine. It wasn't in the original book.
I think that this experiment is what happened to me. I was not among those who died (obviously). But I was distressed. I couldn't talk above a whisper for 3 to 4 years. I was socially more withdrawn. I think my strabismus (eye problem) became worse. I was very depressed.
I think they were trying to produce a superman. They wanted to see if the implantation of "foreign" brain cells into a child would stimulate strength or brilliance.
They (CIA or NSA) don't want this information to be made public. From that standpoint I've already said enough. But I have a burning, personal need to figure this stuff out. It definitely has a healing effect on me to look into it. It's like solving a puzzle in which I was personally involved. It's like solving a cold case.