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#448855 - 10/01/13 05:35 AM a smiling me
Shyshark Offline

Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 971
Loc: Canada
it's late tonight
it's all dark
no light
I'm laying low
hoping so
the power that be
won't see
a smiling me

He must not know
it must not show
a good day
will go away
if He can see
a smiling me

a slumber deep
I will not keep
my joy will seep
dead away
not last another day
if He does see
a smiling me

I pray to Him
though I don't believe
a short reprieve
is all I ask
forgive my past
you must see
all I want
is a smiling me

never before
have you come to my aid
the sins that were done
are still not paid
they do not fade
nor do they heal
but here's the deal
just for a while
let me be
a smiling me

You owe me this
You are remiss
if You forget
I did once serve
in virgin white
over flowing black
I do deserve
a rest from fight
where were You
when wrong came to be
it was not right
why didn't You see
the smiling me

so I lay me down to sleep
and if I die
before I wake
it matters not
I am bereft
there's nothing left
for You to take
nothing left
for You to keep
I'll have to wait and see
if it be You
or the devil
come to claim his due
but I don't care
either way
the very last thing
you both will see

is a smiling me
Experience is a brutal teacher.

#448890 - 10/01/13 05:12 PM Re: a smiling me [Re: Shyshark]
bey Offline

Registered: 01/28/10
Posts: 447
Loc: canada
I don't really know what to say
oh man
do i get it

and thanks for sharing

#448899 - 10/01/13 06:48 PM Re: a smiling me [Re: Shyshark]
Shyshark Offline

Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 971
Loc: Canada
A little Catholic praying
and a lot of Catholic guilt
I can't get away
from what I was built
no matter how I try
it'll haunt me
until the day I die.

I just can't help
going back to square one
whether I did it
or it was done
it's always my fault
and either way
I end up with naught.

Why must I insist
why can't I resist
why can't I desist
going back to the source
while telling myself
He doesn't exist.
Experience is a brutal teacher.

#448986 - 10/02/13 03:13 PM Re: a smiling me [Re: Shyshark]
bluesky Offline

Registered: 08/05/13
Posts: 658
Loc: NJ
I am crying with you know the pain and confusion.

Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."
Frank Herbert

#448993 - 10/02/13 05:55 PM Re: a smiling me [Re: Shyshark]
Shyshark Offline

Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 971
Loc: Canada
thnx guys ...
Experience is a brutal teacher.


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