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#448519 - 09/28/13 02:24 AM Learning Safe Touching
TwoSpiritRising Offline

Registered: 11/01/12
Posts: 32
This is a short share.

I was at my first social occasion, in a long while. Almost since piecing together the realities and re-livings of my repressed sexual abuse. Dancing. Socializing.

I realized how convoluted my intimacy reactions are. Scared, shy, modest. Immediate overcompensation of the sexual and intimate meanings of touching. Almost as Immediate counter-reactive self-repression.

But I am blessed this evening to have good friends, and good community, who touch me safely, and ease and heal my awkwardness; and I return to them my love, my unconditional, no-strings-attached Self; despite my brain, they are non-sexual beings to my Higher Self, that is, our dance is not Sex; and I am drawn to learn to meet them in that Congress, the Dance which came before the trauma; the Dance that is Native; the one that dances in the Souls of Animals and Free Humyns before Shame was introduced into this Culture.

I will become free.

#448526 - 09/28/13 03:04 AM Re: Learning Safe Touching [Re: TwoSpiritRising]
dark empathy Offline

Registered: 11/26/07
Posts: 2625
Loc: durham, north england
I'm really happy you could recover this much of understanding, that sounds a fantastic experience.

i realized how convoluted my intimacy reactions are. scared, shy, modest

Wow, I recognize that one.

#448562 - 09/28/13 07:37 AM Re: Learning Safe Touching [Re: TwoSpiritRising]
On The Fringe Offline

Registered: 09/21/13
Posts: 326
Loc: Southeast USA
What a great way to ease back into safe touching.
I feel more like I do now than I did when I got here.


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