What courage you have to jump right in and start sharing. You may not know it yet, but everything you've done and talked about already shows great strength! Others reading your posts will draw strength from it as well. There are definitely dark times throughout the whole process, but hang on, keep breathing, and stay on the path with your T and sharing here and it will get better.
I didn't really come to terms with how messed up I was from my abuse for about 22 years after I first went to counseling for it. It's been one year of heavy counseling since last summer and I still alternate between light and dark all the time. I want to say it's more light now, but... Anyway, I know I'm on the right path so I just hold on tight through the dark times and reach out to my fellow brothers here at MS. They are all so cool!
I'm sorry you have to be here, but I already love participating in your recovery.
"Me too"-I don't think I will ever get tired of saying or hearing these two words. My StoryProgress