I've developed a condition called 'Trigger Finger' ...
again ... a little fringe benefit of my diabetes.
When I close my hand and then open it my middle finger
gets stuck in a hooked position ... almost every time now.
My ring finger is doing it now and again and as my doctor was
examining my hand the pinky got stuck.
If I concentrate hard I can make the finger 'snap' up but soon
I will have to pry it open ... and without surgery the time will come when it can't be unhooked at all.
Steroids and therapy can help ... but only for a while.
A small incision is made along the natural crease just below the finger
and then ... snip snip snip ... 4 or 5 stitches ... and it never happens again.
My middle finger does it almost all the time now, the ring finger does it
often, and as my doctor was examining my hand the pinky got stuck.
The other finger and the thumb may never be affected but they'll include
them just in case.
In 2 weeks they'll remove the stitches, the gauze will come off after 1 more week ... then therapy.
So when I say a handful of stitches ...
A long incision from side to side ...... 30+.
Three months ago I was in a greenhouse and they realized I knew as much about
house plants as they did and offered me a job.
I have never missed an opportunity and this one was too good to ignore.
I retired almost 10 years ago.
I moved cities and for the last 5 years I have isolated myself
I don't know a soul here unless it's about my health, my finances, or my car.
This job has lured me out into the world again,
and I haven't been happier in years.
My bipolar has been severe but it has never interfered with my work or in moments of crisis.
I can rise above it when I have to.
Over the last 3 months I increasingly became concerned about this risk,
certain that something would ruin it.
Something always does.
You can't work in a greenhouse caring for and selling common house plants and tropicals with water, dirt, bugs, fertilizers ... germs ... etc
Obviously it's not a good environment when your hand is covered in gauze for 2 weeks, multiple sutures come out and another week before the bandages come off, and an additional week to make sure it has completely closed and has not
A month ... and even then it will take time to regain full use.
In the meantime we'll see what is happening with the left hand.
They will have to replace me.
I haven't told my boss yet ... not before seeing the surgeon,
and I'm waiting for an appointment asap because my doctor is worried
that the middle finger could soon hook permanently.
Btw ... it's been almost a year since I started coming to MS,
and at the same time I had to have catarac surgery.
It did not go as hoped and I have since had 3 more lasers ...
I go in 2 weeks for what I hope is the last appointment.
My eyes are great now.
I've been practically blind at times ... for a year ...
and now this.
Experience is a brutal teacher.