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#446462 - 09/05/13 05:11 AM A torn heart
markchristopher Offline

Registered: 08/23/10
Posts: 36
Loc: Washington USA
there are things I need to get out
secrets and mysteries that keep me up at night
as I lay my head down and try to drift off
They well up and whisper in my ear
my rest is hindered and I can do naught
so I come here to try and calm the storm

the sting of regret or the longing of nostalgia
at times I am not sure which it is I feel
was it my body that welcomed the touch?
or was I craving the emotional connection?
my brother seemed a break from the war
but he was a cunning spy and assassin

his sweet words and comforts were welcome
but only as a break from my crude parents
It is a cruel cycle that binds me to him
he derailed the growth of my personality
and now there are none with whom I am close
so his attention and pseudo love are missed

I wish for his pain and his torture and death
but I know if he left I would sorely miss him
because deep down inside I already do
and I secretly want to end my life too
But I know I won't do that
and I won't kill him either
But, Oh how I wish
I could do one or the other

#446514 - 09/05/13 02:52 PM Re: A torn heart [Re: markchristopher]
Shyshark Offline

Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 719
Loc: Canada
it's a terrible place to be ...
between one you love
and what he did

Experience is a brutal teacher.


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