Real sorry to barge in on you. My name is Jean-Pierre and would like and need to say to you Hope dies last,
" Hope dies last. But when it's dead, what then? “
Also my nickname is ( Une vie d’espoir ) as you can see. I am french speacking and it translate in english its ( A life of hope ).
To answer your question, when hope dies what is left is YOURSELF. And believe me YOURSELF is were you started building who you actually are.
As for Chrismas, yes you will be by yourself you and your husband, but on that day your husband and you will be in my thought and heart, I will pray and which you two all sort of good stuff on that day.