Thank you for sharing your thoughts Anthony.
What saddens me is giving open permission to act on behaviors that one intuitively knows is not coming from a place of health and love is essentially extending the experience of abuse.
This is to me the key.. this is why i started this topic in the first place. I'm trying to work on this and understanding why i 'want' to wear female cloathing is part of this.
Sadly, since i discovered i was abused, i found out that a lot of things which i thought were normal, can be classified as addictive. And now im coming to terms with that while slowly but surely changing things for the better.
Your words strike deep within here, but thats ok. Im willing to look at my behavior and ask myself whether i truely want it, or just do it because im obsessed about it.. i cant say i have the answer at this moment concerning wearing female underwear.. but i am working on it, not just indulging in it..
cause i 100% agree with you that we should find out the place of health and love within!
Just read something which actually makes sense to me. Wearing the female underwear ignites the abuse in a way. There are the addictive factors: its a secret you have to keep, and there is the excitement of having to keep it a secret. It's like i replace the abuse with wearing the female underwear, but i was unconcious of the true reasons..
I'll just have to give it a shot at therapy coming thursday, whether i like it or not..