I know that fear Suwanee. Oddly enough, soon after the flood of recovered memories/connection to abuse occurred I began acting out with men. I was always afraid of STDs, HIV especially, but continued on with the behavior on occasion until eventually nipping it in the bud a couple months back. And even then it had been a long time since the previous incident. Nevertheless, here I am with a folder on my desktop entitled "test date" where I will be getting tested for STD's and even though the behavior I engaged in was less risky than unprotected anal sex it was still unprotected. It will be a good day when I get the negative results back here in a few weeks at the 3 month mark.
One of the most upsetting, nay infuriating aspects of CSA for me is the fact that it basically tricks us into engaging in dangerous activities be they sexual, drug related, or direct destruction to our body (i.e. cutting, fighting, etc.).
"Life is like this dark tunnel. You may not always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you keep moving, you will come to a better place." ~ General Iroh