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#444591 - 08/18/13 11:11 AM Pathological Transcendental Meditation
mattheal Offline

Registered: 06/10/12
Posts: 142
Loc: Ohio
Pathological Transcendental Meditation

He was on top of me sweating
But I mostly remember
The sound of the fan in the window
And the sounds of kids playing outside
My mantra

I was there under him
But I mostly remember
Blue translucent curtains
My picture

And when the heat
The sounds
The blue
Swell in my mind

I know that
That I should have
Been one of the kids
Playing outside
It's okay to find the faith to saunter forward
With no fear of shadows spreading where you stand
And you'll breathe easier just knowing
that the worst is all behind you
And the waves that tossed the raft all night
have set you on dry land
- The Mountain Goats - "Never Quite Free"

#444650 - 08/19/13 03:22 AM Re: Pathological Transcendental Meditation [Re: mattheal]
ScottSmith Offline

Registered: 03/19/12
Posts: 27
Loc: CA desert
i just read your poem and it really touched me.
i was there. Not a place to be but understand.
thanks for sharing
"You can always hear the laughter but seldom hear a tear fall."
Keith Johnstone

#444664 - 08/19/13 08:46 AM Re: Pathological Transcendental Meditation [Re: mattheal]
ghostlights Offline

Registered: 11/22/11
Posts: 26
Loc: Upstate NY
I had to read your poem several times and it's one I think I'll always want to have easy access to. The first time through it hit me like a ton of bricks. I get stuck in "repeat mode" sometimes because I don't quite understand what the writer is conveying. In the case of a poem like this it's because it is either so beautiful or devastating that I succumb to a sort of awe and I'm trapped in that loop for a while. As a poet (wannabe) and survivor this is both for me and is probably the most personally relevant statement I've ever read. Thank you.

#444697 - 08/19/13 07:35 PM Re: Pathological Transcendental Meditation [Re: mattheal]
toddop Offline

Registered: 10/14/11
Posts: 233
Loc: California

Thanks for sharing this really painful memory and realization. This really brought me to tears. You should have been out playing, my friend. And it is not your fault that you weren't.

"Great spirits have often encountered violent opposition from weak minds."
-Albert Einstein


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