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#444419 - 08/15/13 10:47 PM Two things happened this...
ThisMan Offline

Registered: 01/23/13
Posts: 778
Loc: upper south
week that were unforeseen.

First, it may come easy for some, but for me it does not. It took some talk and some more honesty from the T on his perceptions of my emotional (or lack thereof) state, but some twenty minutes into the session I CRIED. I didn't tear up- I CRIED. Only for a few moments before the voices from the past inside reminded me what a little piece I was- but still, I crossed for a few minutes into the emotional world of reality and was able to acknowledge after all these years that it hurts. And I was able to cry. The topic was the urinating by guys on other people that I posted of on Saturday, but its much more than that. It all came together for a brief few moments. All the abuse and all the years. Not in segments and chapters but all together. And the world did not end.

Second, I have told only a few people about the art series project I worked on months ago related to healing and Sexual Abuse and the hurt and trauma and all that stuff. And I have shown it to even fewer people. It will be pretty expensive when finished to have matted and framed appropriately. I received a phone call out of the blue last Sunday night from a friend. This friend wanted to be a sponsor for my art work. Meaning this friend wanted to help cover the cost of making it presentable. Is that not cool? And affirming?

I had talked about both of these issues before on MS... being unable to bring forth real emotions and about my art project series on abuse. I just wanted, needed to share these two recent happenings and to say again how grand MS is for guys like me- guys like us.
For now we see through a glass, darkly.

#444421 - 08/15/13 10:51 PM Re: Two things happened this... [Re: ThisMan]
traveler Offline

Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 4181
Loc: resettling in NE Ohio

well done,
and congrats,bro!

How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....
Habakkuk 1:2-3

#444422 - 08/15/13 10:59 PM Re: Two things happened this... [Re: ThisMan]
BraveFalcon Offline

Registered: 02/26/13
Posts: 1231
Loc: The ATL

Hi Bill. Congrats on both accounts! The therapy thing sounds like a major breakthrough to me and a big step on the way to healing some of those old wounds. The artwork thing is just so awesome! How cool that you have a friend who is supportive enough to sponsor you like that. Good luck getting your work out there for as many people to see as possible. You certainly deserve the type of recognition and validation that could entail. Kudos, my man! Peace,


#444426 - 08/15/13 11:14 PM Re: Two things happened this... [Re: ThisMan]
justplainme Offline

Registered: 09/01/09
Posts: 472
Your getting your life back and that includes your emotions. Congrats on the art work!

"Survivors need an opportunity to define their own sexuality in their own terms, rather than in reaction to the abuse, so that they stop allowing their offenders to have power over them sexually."


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