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#210210 - 03/12/08 04:57 AM I Live
eyeslikeapisces Offline
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Registered: 08/13/07
Posts: 15
Loc: NC
I Live

Who I was, I can no longer be.
Without permission that life was taken from me.

No pleading will bring it back.
It’s gone, after one simple act.

My pain reminds me I am still alive.
And something wills me to survive.

Change has come like a new season.
I follow its path for one simple reason…

Two voices are louder than one,
In a battle that will be won…

By those who choose to rise up and speak,
No longer allowing themselves to be weak

To you the reader, know you are not alone
And suffering doesn’t last as long…

As you let the past be the worst
And allow the future to burst…

Into flames that burn brighter than the sun
Then you will no longer have to run.

To the monster that haunts you everyday
These are the words you must say;

“Who I was, I can no longer be
Without permission that life was taken from me

But, I am reborn a survivor with allies by my side
And nothing but my fear of you has died.

I live.

my story @

#210216 - 03/12/08 05:13 AM Re: I Live [Re: eyeslikeapisces]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

You do indeed live. Welcome to the site and I hope it can be of use to you in your healing journey. You are right - abuse changes everything. But we can indeed reclaim our lives and I am pleased to see you moving in that direction with such courage.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

#210222 - 03/12/08 05:52 AM Re: I Live [Re: roadrunner]
Scoutvictim Offline

Registered: 06/04/07
Posts: 434
Loc: St. Louis, Missouri

Somehow I missed your arrival back in August, so let me start by saying welcome to MS.

I have read some of your other posts, and I am sorry you have had to go through all this crap.

Your poems are wonderful:

By those who choose to rise up and speak,
No longer allowing themselves to be weak

Those words ring so true to me, it is only by speaking out that we free ourselves. Secrets can take up so much space in our brains that we don't have the ability to continue to live full lives.

Keep talking, Keep writing, Keep LIVING!!!

Luv ya,

Shawn and Ben will always be in my heart....

Happiness is like peeing your pants; Everyone can see it, but only YOU feel the warmth.

Peebles, Ohio WOR alumni, Oct. 2007

#443323 - 08/05/13 07:31 AM Re: I Live [Re: eyeslikeapisces]
victor-victim Offline

Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 6387
Loc: š¯’Ŗ š¯’¦anada
i love this poem.
thanks for posting it.

"As you let the past be the worst
And allow the future to burst

reminds me of Deepak Chopra
“all our worst fears have already happened to us!”

and the opening line...
"Who I was, I can no longer be."
is the mourning we all feel here.
but contained within that phrase is a seed of hope,
of transformations yet to come, of putting negative identities behind us as well.



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