I've got to share an experience here before i forget about it.
It made me change my whole position on so many things.
I saw hell 2 days ago. For like ONE SECOND.
Scared me half to death. Almost passed out/threw up. body went numb. shaking.
the Permanance (I don't believe in permanent hell, but i do believe in the EXPERIENCE of permanence, which I think the bible was referring to).
and the absolute horror of being unable to win.
and above all....THE SEXUAL DEPRAVITY
In (my?) Hell, the natural desire for a father son relationship is replaced by ironclad sexual obsession, manipulation and control.
One christian asked me the other day when I told him about my behavior, "aren't you afraid of hell?".
I said, "no".
Its time to change my answer.
I have SEEN hell many times (i'm spiritually open sometimes). There is always sexual mayhem going on there and people trying to eat each other. there is no room to move. people are half beast. And the predominant outlook is always TOMORROW WILL BE WORSE THAN TODAY.
But I've never FELT IT as it would apply to me personally. I was almost always an onlooker with a way out.
I think I saw where I was headed, if I am not careful.
Someone I respect told me that one look at the devil can kill you. I can fully see how that is possible now.
Anyway guys, thanks for listening.
I had been praying for 3 days for the incentive to move out of some things I had been doing.
Now I have it.
Pain is a great teacher.
Edited by GoldStone (08/02/13 03:29 AM)