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#441438 - 07/20/13 12:56 AM kings - for Todd
mattheal Offline

Registered: 06/10/12
Posts: 142
Loc: Ohio

I come from the timeless land of Tut where boys are kings
Sand castles, monkey bars, slides, snow piles
Bicycle steeds and skinned knees
Armies of Tonka, Matchbox, and G.I. Joe
Patron of dinosaurs, bugs, grass, and dirt
And my kingdom prospered innocent and beautiful

But then the monsters came to Tut and attacked
Hidden, bared teeth and poisoned fangs
I fought with all I had, and stayed alive
And when the monster had his fill, he locked me in his lair
Alone in the dark with my silent screams
For twenty-five years

On the day I lost all hope
I saw myself - the cracked crown king
And found the key

I wandered for a while, false starts, unsure footing
Free from my cell, with faded thoughts of Tut
A constant fear of the monsters
And then I found you and the battlefield by the lair

A sea of boys, fire, an endless stream of nonsters
Brave warriors fighting, bloody and exhausted
Despite the chaos, you told me about the battle
Congratulated me for for for finding the key
And I was no longer alone

And I cried
For those still stuck in their cells
For your battles
For your scars

And now I join this crowd of kings
With its heavy scars and pierced armor
And stand beside you in battle
Holding a sword I never knew i had
The Land of Tut may be lost
But its kings shall rule again
It's okay to find the faith to saunter forward
With no fear of shadows spreading where you stand
And you'll breathe easier just knowing
that the worst is all behind you
And the waves that tossed the raft all night
have set you on dry land
- The Mountain Goats - "Never Quite Free"

#441442 - 07/20/13 02:13 AM Re: kings - for Todd [Re: mattheal]
toddop Offline

Registered: 10/14/11
Posts: 233
Loc: California
Thank you so much for this. Words can't even express how I feel reading this. I love how you have expanded and created a whole world out of that image from that shared exchange in your post. And I am truly honored for the dedication. You have brought tears to my eyes.

We are scarred, and it makes me cry, too. But, I will raise my sword in battle with you any time. I've got your back. The monsters don't stand a chance if we stand together. Long live the Kings!


"Great spirits have often encountered violent opposition from weak minds."
-Albert Einstein

#441460 - 07/20/13 10:33 AM Re: kings - for Todd [Re: mattheal]
traveler Offline

Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 4101
Loc: resettling in NE Ohio
beautiful and moving - i feel like an intruder reading it - but honored to have been able to witness this.
"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"


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