Welcome back, Matt!
i am sorry to hear of your loss of your wife.
and also of your father's failure to believe and protect you.
glad you have your son and hope and pray that the two of you can be a wonderful support to one another.
it is so good that you have continued with your journey of healing on your own - but also great to have you back with us.
if there is anything we can do to help, just ask.
i think most of us have had major trust issues to deal with - so you are not alone there.
"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"