I know exactly how you feel. I'm in an apartment by myself right now, but I'm married. I left my wife because of a lot of reasons -- I told her that she could find someone better.
Life is hard, very hard. There is no easy road to recovery. I put my wife and family through a lot because of my issues, and I blamed it on them.
I have a lot of making up to do with them to make it right...
Hang in there and face the demons. You can do it! I know it's hard, but life was not meant to be like this. Someone took away your sunshine, and you are going to have to get it back. You can do it!
I'm working to put everything back the way it was meant to be. I'm going to slay this dragon. Want to join me?