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#438798 - 06/21/13 11:51 AM Re: No Memory. Am I alone here? [Re: Poorsoft]

Registered: 08/31/11
Posts: 3748
There is nothing sane about CSA--memories are sometimes buried so deeply. For me I always had memories but once the flood gates were opened from actions that made me feel like the child in the cellar all hell broke loose. My periods of loosing time, blanking out and fugues increased as I fought to bury these memories--deny them and never wanted him to come back--but I could no longer control them. They overtook my life as did the actions of others creating those feelings of being in the cellar with his hands all over me, trapped locked in and no escape. It destroyed me and only now am I healing and becoming who I truly am. The memories were so vivid when I had to visit the place of the abuse to bury my Mom. Sometimes you cannot control the release of the memories, other times they are locked and you do not know how and when they will be released. The help of a T may help you explore your past and may help release what you have buried for so long. Don't be hard on yourself. In time what you have buried will come to light.

#440526 - 07/10/13 04:28 AM Re: No Memory. Am I alone here? [Re: Poorsoft]
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Registered: 06/19/10
Posts: 123
Loc: nevada
I dont have alot of memories. But I look at symtoms of rape survivors. I have all of them. My theripist knows I was molested he sure of it. i am becoming very sure of it and im not making it up. Victims of crime pays for my theripy. Told them i was molested as a child and they pay my theripy.
There is the Thinker and with meditation, the one who watches the Thinker. Get to know the one who watches the thinking. The mind is inherantly pure, we can always go there. An empty mind is a ready mind, it is ready for anything.

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