Cdn Kirby -
your journey has already begun. it started the moment you acknowledged to yourself that you needed to find help. tomorrow is a major milestone - but you are already well on the way. by coming here and reading - and now sharing, you have also taken giant strides. well done, fellow-survivor!
a couple of things you might experience:
1. an initial feeling of elation after opening up and letting your story out to a T for the first time.
2. a following slump or letdown and second-guessing yourself - fear of having revealed too much - feeling of loss, lack of control, etc.
push on through. keep at it. don't let the backlash get you down. it is worth the effort to persevere. your quality of life will improve if you keep working. it is hard, but the pay-off is far more valuable than the cost.
stick with us, man. stay in touch. we can help each other through the rough times.
"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"