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#4387 - 06/16/05 10:29 AM Speaking, ill. It is trigger?
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Registered: 06/03/05
Posts: 723
I am sick right now. It - something, happens, because of a thing of health, it - I was ill easier. Never it is such problems (releases). It - a life. The life happens, usually, a life, it is good. To have it, certainly, is good. So it will be, some people, they will have various things to deal, others have something else. Not everyone is easier than others. We only all are excellent(different). So right now, I am sick. But also and, I know, that I am sad. Already, I grieve without my sister. Friends, I have remarkable friends, and - the most beautiful thing to have them. I receive the blessing, I have them, I know. But nevertheless, there is something rather various, to have family. With my family, only it always there was my Aunt and my sister whom I think, really, that I like and I love me. My Aunt is dead, many years. So it to have my sister who is something rather special to me. I know, that it - is much more, than the some people will have. Why is, right now, it feels such bad thing, only it should be hurt? I remember before, even when I am to nurseries and patients in a bed, my mother - not mother to me, she is a fan(an amateur) (lover) to me instead of it. But she(it) - not here. There is no of danger here. It is a lunatic to me, to be so overturned right now. But it resembles, to be ill, it is dangerous? It is a lunatic, I know, that I do not do(make) by many(a lot of,much) sense (feeling). I can still speak?

I can tell it? That I feel the most safe here, most grateful of here. My friends, two friends here, they speak me about it how it - the help him(it), and I think, about, whether is good how it, should write things to strangers who do not know you? It - I think, that it - the help. My friends speak me, no, it not anything you made badly, that she(it) made is is wrong. But nevertheless, I cannot think, that, I cannot think poorly on my mother, and nevertheless, I am the adult, I do(make) it as the adult with it(her), it - I was wrong. Things my friends and also the translator helps me to read here, I know, now it is possible - not my mistake.

Right now, tonight, I feel, that I wish to tell so here. And, how you do(make) it? How you speak so angrily such plenty of years? Tonight I am sad, I know, that I grieve without my sister. I feel the patient. And I feel scared which is for the silly reasons. I feel anger, and hatred, and повреждаю. I do not understand all from this. And I have the big regret, I feel, that I cannot offer the help so to anothers here because language worries. I really read the some people here, in the best way I can make with the translator, but I do not know, that I have such big help or I inform I (advise) or that - нибудь to give anyone. I regret to be эгоистичным here and to take without enough, to give in exchange. I think, tonight will be long.

It seems, that there are some words which the translator does not explain to the English right. I am sorry.


#4388 - 06/16/05 01:51 PM Re: Speaking, ill. It is trigger?
sophiesdad Offline

Registered: 04/30/05
Posts: 462
Loc: Florida

There are no unresolved issues - they just didn't resolve themselves the way we would have liked. "Grinder and Bandler - Neuro-Linguistic Programming"

#4389 - 06/16/05 03:59 PM Re: Speaking, ill. It is trigger?
reality2k4 Offline

Registered: 07/06/04
Posts: 6845
Loc: Stuck between water, air, and ...
VN, I am sorry you are hurting and feeling ill.

You do not have to give anything in return for being helped.

Things that happen to you are not your fault, and you should not feel their guilt and shame.

I am sorry that your sister cannot be there for you, but I am glad you have friends to help you get through.

I hope you can find time to feel good about you, and who you are.

It is good that you are here with friends.


Whoever stole the Sun, put it back and we'll drop all the charges!

#4390 - 06/17/05 06:18 AM Re: Speaking, ill. It is trigger?
Leosha Offline

Registered: 06/18/03
Posts: 3614
Loc: Right here
Hello my friend,

I am sorry you are sick. I know it is problem for you, and I hope it does not get to serious.

I know that you are missing your sister, I am very glad that her visit was positive for you, as I know you were worried about it.

And I am glad that you are finding it positive here, even when you must resort to the computer translator. Because here you can learn, you are not alone, it is not just me and Andrei who say it is not your fault, even in recent years. There are good people here, there are good people who have been responding to you. You are a good man. You will see that.


Avatar photo in memory of my younger brother Makar.

"Human salvation lies in the hands of the creatively maladjusted."~~~Martin Luther King Jr., 1963

#4391 - 06/18/05 12:09 AM Re: Speaking, ill. It is trigger?
Mike Church Offline
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Registered: 01/23/03
Posts: 3439
Loc: Toronto, Canada
VN we are all here for you. I know what you have done for your friends and the strong support you have provided when needed. Now it is your turn and they are there for you just as we are here for you. This is not a journey you take alone. It is in the company of those who care. Listen closely to what all of us say.

And remember what Leosha said. It is not, never was and never will be your fault what happened. \:\)




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