Your words are strong, honest, and very moving. Thanks for sharing the steps of your journey. It helps to understand my own situations a little bit clearer. I am sorry that the pastor had the necessity to bring God into the abuse. The abuse into church. But that's what they do. The predator moves about where the prey is located.
I also feel that the man I was to become was destroyed when my abuse started. But it seems you have done a very good job of reinventing that man as one who has a story to tell, others to help heal. You are doing good for the world.
For now we see through a glass, darkly.