Last night My wife and I went out to a party in a city pretty far away. we left around midnite and were off the eway at about 130. I dont recall leaving the place, driving home, or arguing with her in the car. But all that happened. Then I found myself walking the street alone in the dark toward home.
I have no explanation for my actions and cant recall anything at all. I was not drunk, high, or otherwise messed up, but I certainly was messed up somehow inside my head otherwise I never would have exited the car and told her to leave me there.
My T a long time ago told me events like this are when I go into survivor mode (which she said i lived in that mode for the better parts of decades)
Now I have a pissed off wife that cannot understand my actions.. and neither can I understand them.
I dunno what happened
any similar experiences with survivormode/blackout/trigger/ without intoxication?
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