About three months ago, I joined MS. I became a proud member and I was an active chat participant. Who didn't I know in the chat room. I have met many great men through the chat lounge, with many private messaging going on . . . I felt very connected to so many good men.
I joined MS, because I was going through a turning point in my life--turning 40. I had (and still do have) some insecurities due to my abuse. Therefore, I wanted to join MS in the attempt to explore who I am and where I want to go in life.
The interesting factor for me about MS was the chat room. As I previously stated, I became a very active participant. At the same time, I also became too active. As CafeMan, I was a mover and a shaker, laughing, sharing, crying and getting to know so many great guys. However, I became withdrawn from my business, my family and my friends because my time was so dedicated in the chat room.
For almost three months I became CafeMan, instead of being just Nick. Even before I joined MS, I was already CafeMan for nine years. I devoted my life to my restaurant, thus giving up my identity and my feelings along the way.
MS took me full circle. I "woke up" so to speak, by realizing that I want more in life than just working hard at my restaurant. I want more in life than to stay behind my keyboard and chat for hours. While I don't regret my time on MS, I now realize that I have to become Nick and start putting CafeMan behind me.
I started going out more, spending far less time in the chat room and started thinking of who I am and where I need to go in life. I'm not saying that I won't visit the chat room, but I will not be spending the marathon time there anymore. A healthy ten minutes here and there to catch up with good friends is more than sufficient, while I embark on a new chapter in my life.
So I'll make the rounds in the chat room and forum, but realize that I will have to seek more balance within myself and for my growing list of activities. Feel free to message me privately to catch up. I look forward to a great summer and to hearing about your fun activities as we strive for satisfaction and completion in our lives. So thank you MS and the chat room for helping me rediscover who I am and where I want to be in life.