Thanks for the support Geoff!
Don't be sorry, Ken. It took me a lot of years just to entertain the idea that the horrible things I think about myself may not be true. I have mirrors too, and it's painful to look at myself. It really is. However, as perverse as this may sound, it does help to know that I'm not the only one who struggles with this stuff.
You know what's weird, (and I don't mean to drag your thread off-topic I'm just curious if anyone else has this hang-up), you know what's even harder for me than mirrors? Pictures of me! I can look in mirrors because I have to. You know, to get my hair right in the morning and shit like that. When I see a pic of myself.... Ewwwwwww, GROSS!!! BURN IT!!!