As men, we need to hold our own, stand up for ourselves, be the bad ass and show that we aren't anything to mess with. Basically, we need to act like we're a part of the Wu Tang Clan, and that we will bring the Ruckus if need be. However, how much of this stems from fear of others? As CSA survivors, are we more prone to act defensive, and be quicker to anger? Are we so afraid that someone might violate us again, in such a humiliating manner, and in a place where our manhood stems from, that we act like we just don't care, and will act reckless towards potential threats?
The reason why I label this post as Sheep In Wolf's Clothing, because it seems that a lot of CSA survivors follow this trend, of being reckless and dangerous, like they're trying to prove something to themselves, or others around them. However, this doesn't seem to make them a wolf, because to me, a wolf is a leader who makes their own path in life, and doesn't let anything make their decisions for them. It seems that people who act recklessly and dangerously think that they're in control of their lives, but this is just Wolf's clothing that they put on, and they're afraid to take it off, because it exposes them as a sheep, a sheep that someone could violate, again.
Just in deep thought, and thought that I would think out loud about behavior of people who act so dangerously.