I've only had that kind of intense dissociation once, that I know of, and it was around first grade, I think. However, I have had that sense of lost time and wanting to escape reality. Sometimes, the only thing I can do is write down what happened today - every day - and how it felt. And if I do that often enough, I start to feel like I'm back walking a path with a chronological narrative.
Strength in power is a false victory rooted in vapid grandiosity. Strength in character and integrity is the freedom to act righteously irrespective of the surrounding pressure. True power is the presence of mind to live with character and integrity.