Thanx to everyone who responded. Things are better ... still not great - not even "good" (whatever good is) ... but they are better.
I truly appreciate all the inputs!
Hi Mark. I'm glad to hear you're feeling a little better.
Yeah, this is what I call "relative happiness". For me, although I am rarely what you could legitimately call "happy", I have spent so much of my life in a suicidal abyss that when I am not to the point of literally wanting to kill myself, I tell people I'm "kinda happy" or that I'm "doing ok", even if it's not 100% true, only true by my standards. So, you definitely aren't alone in feeling this way. Hope things continue to improve for you. Take care. Peace,