Has anyone else here had amnesia and tried hypnotherapy successfully?
I was put on a regimen of light hypnosis for DID stuff. Light hypnosis was the same as deep relaxation in my therapy. It was very non-threatening. The T had built a sense of trust in me.
It is a different technique than deep hypnosis where the will is surrendered to the psychotherapist. In deep relaxation, my mind and will were still active. I was aware of what was taking place and so I was a participant.
It was almost fun to have the various boy personalities come forth and be talked to. I had several 12-year-old personalities, due to the flagrant nature of abuse then. At one point I was a 12-year-old boy and I drove the car to the shopping center. Nothing bad happened, but I don't recommend this.
The deep relaxation therapy (light hypnosis) was highly successful at clarifying what was going on inside of me. Before doing this I produced a diagram of me: All the various personalities. I identified about a dozen and we weren't sure it was complete. I learned the technique and I was soon doing it at home. In a quiet evening when wife was at work, I got the tape player with sweet children's music. I had an agenda worked out ahead of time. The agenda was very simple. It involved putting myself into the deep relaxation and calling out one of the child personalities. I the adult remained the moderator. Then the child and I enjoyed the music and then I persuaded the child personality to integrate with the adult (me). Yes, use very simple reasoning. They always said 'yes'. With each session I was becoming more "whole".
During this time the T was also working with me and with the inner children. He's a good man and he has successfully raised 3 children of his own.
Finally we arrived at the situation of my apparently having 2 personalities: adult and boy age 12. The boy had all the memories of the torture and sexual abuse in the scout camp. He was very troubled. At that time I bolted from therapy. That boy wasn't willing to progress and there were some other complications. I think this can easily happen when a difficult personality is encountered. The boy was paranoid and had lots of problems.
This went on for several years and finally I had EMDR therapy which was successful in integrating the boy with the adult, although there were lots of loose memory tags left.
Today, I wonder if there are undiscovered personalities and stuff in there which might still be causing problems. So I have returned to the first T who did the psychotherapy.
So, I'm going to a hypnotherapist to see what exactly is hiding in my subconscious. My EMDR therapist has not been much help and seems very new to the discipline, and inept. I know some people warn against this. The very odd thing, in my case, is I'm living with the parent I suspect SA'd me, and my parents are paying for the hypnotherapist.
A guy in your situation is at war with himself. A boy forms his role model of who he should be in life from his dad. So if he has sincere doubts as to whether the dad was worthy of trust, then the guy feels like he's in a very shaky situation.
The only thing I can think is that he- my father- suspected perp- knows I'm already having flashbacks trickle in slowly, .....
I just want to know the truth. I know that's hard to fathom for some people, and maybe it's easy for me to say while I'm on this side of the amnesia, but I still love my father. I hate what he did, if he did it. And there's a whole laundry list of reasons I think it was him. But I'm open to anything.
You're in the position of having to double-think your father and what he might have done. You do need some good help with this.
How much does your father know about psychology and the psychology of healing?
The deep relaxation technique used with me allowed me to access the deeper stuff down inside without feeling that sensation of violating secrecy.
One of the books I've found most helpful about hypnotherapy in treating our kinds of problems is: Fractured Mind, My Life With Multiple Personality Disorder, by Robert B. Oxnam. Oxnam writes in an interesting fashion and describes the various personalities who came forward. Oxnam was a high functioning adult who had experienced trauma from some teenagers when he was very small. He originally entered therapy for alcoholism and then after a period of time the personalities appeared. The first one was Bobby who was 13. His therapy allowed him to remain functional. I recommend this book.http://www.amazon.com/FRACTURED-MIND-MULTIPLE-PERSONALITY-DISORDER/dp/B000Y8SE4W/