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#430958 - 04/12/13 04:05 AM Running from hell with you gone
dragon Offline

Registered: 04/18/12
Posts: 355
Loc: on the river between Hades n V...
A brother you've become to me
Built relationship on trust and knowing truth
Never doubting each other
Always consoling each other when needed

I learned how to love with you
I learned not to be afraid of the demons around me
I learned how to live in the darkest of places
I learned how to push forward despite the monsters holding us back

I call to my brother of arms
I call out your name screaming till i fall
Tears running down my cheeks so wet and hot
No voice left from the screaming for you

We've had our times where we weren't talking
You were stolen from me months ago
How i miss the brother i grew to know
The brother i grew to love

You are still him despite our horrors we live
You have learned how to live once again
Despite a monster's collar's and chains binding us down
We are still brothers and trusted souls

Months pass and we've grown close again
Time gave us a little time to repair what they stole
Not fully getting it back but rebuilding on new things
But the monsters can't seem to let us have that now

A younger one is quietly wandering the grounds of hell
Wandering in search of the older one he grew to trust and love
Wondering if they shall ever meet up again
Calling out always for the one he loves

Monsters they are always there
They never go away but stay hidden quite well in the shadows
People that are normal to all others
But night comes and they show their true selves

I call to my fellow brothers in arms that are in this hell with me
I call out to the ones that can here me to come
So far only my older protector and a love of heart comes
No trusted brother yet though can our fight have made it over?

I receive a letter from you and one i didn't want to get
One saying you will always love me
One saying to go on without you as your time is up
I must learn to live for now and continue my journey out of hell

You said you are sorry but sorry for things that weren't ever your fault
I hate that i've now lost you for good to the monsters that bound us
I hate they've seen fit to destroy all we've had and take you again
I HATE that they stole you away from us

I trudge through hell wandering into a bright uncertain light
I hear your voice saying to keep going and keep running
I hear you telling me to keep safe and safe my love of heart
I hear you tell me of your love but to keep moving don't look back

Crying the tears for you now my brother
Not wanting to move forward but in toe with two others
Joined by another two
Running from a hell we all know

Coming into the light i drop to me knees now moving
I don't care i just wanted you with us
Knowing its our last days together but you're not here
How does this little one move forward now?

Where the hell are the angels at when we need them?
Where the hell are you now?
How does one move forward from such hell
My hands in the hands of two others that are lifting me up

Where ever we run we run with you
Where ever we lay our heads you are forever in my heart
I hope one day to stand on the cliff and see the ocean with you
Staring into the uncertain light of knowing we're now forever apart i break to tears and drop to the ground once again

I can't do this can I?
Why should i do this without you here with us?
I know the promise i must keep to you
I won't let them ever forget you

With your love in my heart i take the first step towards out
I don't want to look back;I just want to start again;Somebody save me--- Pop Evil: Broken and Betrayed

I want justice I want you overthrown;I want courage I want to stand alone;I want your arrogance and I want your pain;I want your everything and I want you dead--- Rev Theory: Justice

#431033 - 04/12/13 07:13 PM Re: Running from hell with you gone [Re: dragon]
bodyguard8367 Offline

Registered: 05/16/12
Posts: 1159
Loc: ""

Edited by bodyguard8367 (02/27/14 03:53 AM)

#434247 - 05/10/13 11:16 AM Re: Running from hell with you gone [Re: dragon]
Life's A Dream Offline

Registered: 08/25/11
Posts: 886
Loc: Bouvet Island
I miss you, J. I don't know if you're alive or dead now. I think of you often. Your story will never be forgotten. Not by me, anyway. Some members here scared you away. I don't know how or why. But I wish they had kept their goddamned mouths shut. I miss you badly. I'll never hear from you again. I'll never get to hear another sweet account of you and your kids taking a walk through nature and watching eagles soar. You're dead for all I know. I hate life that much more that someone like you- someone so much sweeter a human being than me- has had your life cut short, when you were so close to escaping from your life of pain and misery.

Wherever you are, if there is a God, you will be in heaven, far from the reach of your satanic sperm-donor "father" running and playing forever with your brother, with no memory of the life you left behind. I just wish I could have told you one last time how much I loved you like a brother or a son. So many live long who deserve death, and so many die young who deserve life and honor. So long, my friend. I love and miss you.


#434268 - 05/10/13 05:25 PM Re: Running from hell with you gone [Re: dragon]
ThisMan Offline

Registered: 01/23/13
Posts: 778
Loc: upper south
Gentlemen- I have read the poem above and its power reached into my soul. I read and I cried and I read and I cried.

"I can't do this can I?
Why should i do this without you here with us?
I know the promise i must keep to you
I won't let them ever forget you

With your love in my heart i take the first step towards out"

I know it was written for a specific person you love.I am so sorry this person is gone. So sorry indeed. I can easily use bring this into my realm of reality, and I did. Thank you for sharing these words as a reminder that I, too, was once loved and cared for on this level. Your words at once inspire and remind. The mark of a true poet.

"Your story will never be forgotten. Not by me, anyway."

LAD, what a wonderful tribute you left for your friend. Perhaps others will read what you have written and will become a bit more gentle and a bit more patient with their fellows.

Edited by ThisMan (05/10/13 05:28 PM)
For now we see through a glass, darkly.

#434413 - 05/12/13 01:47 AM Re: Running from hell with you gone [Re: dragon]
victor-victim Offline

Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 6387
Loc: 𝒪 𝒦anada
i had to read this poem several times before i was able to finish it. it is too painful for me to swallow in one bite.
but this is a good thing. you have a way with words.

when you talk of your brother, i think of the child inside me.
the brother i never had. friends i called brother.
a bitter description of loss.


some of these poems are too much for me, and cause me to temporarily leave this :poetry: forum to lick my wounds before returning for more.

this one did it. gotta go for a while.
please consider that a compliment.



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