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#430772 - 04/10/13 03:06 PM Great T Session
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Edited by Suwanee (02/26/16 10:49 AM)
I've got this life
And the will to show
I will always be
Better than before


#430779 - 04/10/13 05:20 PM Re: Great T Session [Re: Suwanee]
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Registered: 10/09/11
Posts: 3792
Loc: South-East Europe
Hey Will,
great that you are making progress with your healing.
I can imagine face of your T then you told her about your fellow survivor, lol. It must be some shock for her. You know many survivors would need a lot of help and preparation for such contact and talk.

Originally Posted By: Suwanee
I told my T that the perp performed a virtual castration and lobotomy on me to protect his own ego and control needs. She just about fell out of her chair and said it was a very Intersting and valid metaphor. She wanted to see where I went with it. She reminded me of the accomplishments I made afterward...that I recovered what he took that summer. She's right. I came back to conquer ADHD, sports, mountains, high school, college, career.

I hope the son of a bitch doesn't think that 13 year-old kid was out for the count. Then again, does it even fucking matter what he thinks?


Very insightful observation. It is good that your T checked where you are at present comparing to back than and those lobotomy times. And you really have reasons to be proud on self and you accomplishments.

No, it is not all important what he thought back than, I wonder did he at all saw real you if I may say that.
You know I sometimes wonder if abusive people are capable of thinking about victims at all. They are in constant search for spots of weakness around them, it is fast panic kind of life made of short glimpses of some deeper consciousness selfishly pointed to own importance. There is not much space left for others. You are much bigger than that, you were back than many years ago and now difference is even much wider...

My story

#430780 - 04/10/13 05:35 PM Re: Great T Session [Re: Suwanee]
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Registered: 10/15/12
Posts: 928
"Does it even fucking matter what he thinks?"

Only if it's "these tumors are so painful and I miss my testicles, why won't death make the pain stop??!" Nothing else is of consequence.
My story

"Don't think it hasn't been a little slice of Heaven just because it hasn't!" --Bugs Bunny

#430783 - 04/10/13 05:57 PM Re: Great T Session [Re: Suwanee]
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Registered: 02/26/05
Posts: 1058
Castration + lobotomy. That sounds about right.

It does not matter what your perp thinks about you. Fuck him. He is not even worth the time that a revenge fantasy takes to concoct.

But he grew old, this knight so bold / And upon his heart a shadow / Fell as he found / No spot on the ground / That looked like El Dorado.

#430788 - 04/10/13 07:40 PM Re: Great T Session [Re: Suwanee]
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Registered: 01/22/13
Posts: 778
Loc: upper south
"I hope the son of a bitch doesn't think that 13 year-old kid was out for the count. Then again, does it even fucking matter what he thinks?"

Will, I replaced age 13 for all my ages. Fuck them all. Thank you.

"It does not matter what your perp thinks about you. Fuck him. He is not even worth the time that a revenge fantasy takes to concoct. "

Cant, I reserve this for the mid age event. Fuck him. Thank you.
For now we see through a glass, darkly.

#430820 - 04/10/13 11:30 PM Re: Great T Session [Re: Suwanee]
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Registered: 02/25/13
Posts: 1231
Loc: The ATL

Hi Will. Good post and great analogy. Having read your story it definitely makes sense. It sounds like your recovery from that "lobotomy" has gone and is going about as well as could ever be expected. Now if only you could extract and bottle whatever it is in you that has driven you to achieve so much after being traumatized so badly, I'm sure many of us would be lining up for a just a sample! I've got dibs on the front of the line just in case you ever do! smile

If you don't mind my asking, how is the other guy? Where has his path taken him? Is he ok? Is he struggling, is he overcoming, or a little bit of both? Perhaps you should invite him to post here but that is up to you. Maybe you already have and it's just not for him.

Oh, and I have to echo what everyone else said as far as your perp is concerned. Fuck what he thinks and fuck him, wherever he is now, which is hopefully rotting in prison. Peace,



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