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#430394 - 04/07/13 12:40 AM I'm Fine
Poorsoft Offline

Registered: 02/20/13
Posts: 163
I did delete this earlier, because I wasn't happy with it. I left it half heartidly and went back to it. I only did this because I was inspired by reading this forum, some really powerful stuff on this forum.

Anyway, here goes. This is called 'I'm Fine'.

Thoughts appear, like an invading swarm of flies;
My body tells the truth, whilst my mind preaches lies.
Rebelling once again, my heart races on;
Stampeding furiously, I breathe slowly till it's gone.
Asking how I am, I tell you 'I'm fine'.
Now letís hear your problems, so we can just ignore mine.

Sitting amongst the audience, I sit and watch my life;
All the victories and losses all tangled with strife.
Without love for myself, I slowly begin to brake;
As I destroy everything, I see how much I can take
You ask once more, if I'm sure I'm 'just' fine;
I convincingly say yes, but lie for the second time.

Playing with fire, I toy with extreme ideas;
Don't worry though; I've thought this way for years.
Like clockwork, I start to lose control;
I drive recklessly, hoping I may accidently end it all.
The alarms are deafening, even all the signs are there;
But I'll still tell you I'm fine and claim not to care.

Wanting to trust you, I put you to the test;
An impossible task, but you still do your best.
I don't mean to judge you or place you on trial;
But Iíll do it anyway, its just part of my denial.
Think me not a fool; I know this is not fine;
I'll say it anyway, hoping you'll read through the lines.

Though the pain is distant, the grief is fresh;
It infests my mind, agonizes my flesh.
With careless hands, I begin to throw it all away;
I will stand by in silence, as I watch myself decay.
I wish you could know, whatís in this head of mine;
And why I find it much easier, to just say Iím fine.

Edited by Poorsoft (04/08/13 05:09 PM)

#430428 - 04/07/13 03:57 PM Re: I'm Fine [Re: Poorsoft]
SamV Offline

Registered: 12/13/09
Posts: 5959
Loc: Talladega, Alabama, USA
Yeah, like that, and then,
Now letís hear your problems, so we can just ignore mine.
So many years like that, yet so necessary to feel the relief of recovery. You have captured this sentiment, thank you.

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#430470 - 04/08/13 02:51 AM Re: I'm Fine [Re: Poorsoft]
peroperic2009 Offline

Registered: 10/09/11
Posts: 3829
Loc: South-East Europe
Great poem Poorsoft!
My story

#430487 - 04/08/13 05:14 AM Re: I'm Fine [Re: Poorsoft]
traveler Offline

Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 4157
Loc: resettling in NE Ohio
i think you write well - and may be speaking for many of us.
beautifully done.
"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"

#430507 - 04/08/13 10:53 AM Re: I'm Fine [Re: Poorsoft]
Poorsoft Offline

Registered: 02/20/13
Posts: 163
Thank you for the comments smile

#430560 - 04/08/13 07:58 PM Re: I'm Fine [Re: Poorsoft]
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Registered: 05/16/12
Posts: 1159
Loc: ""

Edited by bodyguard8367 (02/26/14 10:45 PM)


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