I did delete this earlier, because I wasn't happy with it. I left it half heartidly and went back to it. I only did this because I was inspired by reading this forum, some really powerful stuff on this forum.
Anyway, here goes. This is called 'I'm Fine'.
Thoughts appear, like an invading swarm of flies;
My body tells the truth, whilst my mind preaches lies.
Rebelling once again, my heart races on;
Stampeding furiously, I breathe slowly till it's gone.
Asking how I am, I tell you 'I'm fine'.
Now letís hear your problems, so we can just ignore mine.
Sitting amongst the audience, I sit and watch my life;
All the victories and losses all tangled with strife.
Without love for myself, I slowly begin to brake;
As I destroy everything, I see how much I can take
You ask once more, if I'm sure I'm 'just' fine;
I convincingly say yes, but lie for the second time.
Playing with fire, I toy with extreme ideas;
Don't worry though; I've thought this way for years.
Like clockwork, I start to lose control;
I drive recklessly, hoping I may accidently end it all.
The alarms are deafening, even all the signs are there;
But I'll still tell you I'm fine and claim not to care.
Wanting to trust you, I put you to the test;
An impossible task, but you still do your best.
I don't mean to judge you or place you on trial;
But Iíll do it anyway, its just part of my denial.
Think me not a fool; I know this is not fine;
I'll say it anyway, hoping you'll read through the lines.
Though the pain is distant, the grief is fresh;
It infests my mind, agonizes my flesh.
With careless hands, I begin to throw it all away;
I will stand by in silence, as I watch myself decay.
I wish you could know, whatís in this head of mine;
And why I find it much easier, to just say Iím fine.
Edited by Poorsoft (04/08/13 09:09 PM)