That's not what I'm saying.
I'm saying it's two different issues.
Issue #1 is Craigslist. That issue you have control over and you need to control it.
Issue #2 is your dissociative amnesia, which you cannot control, and which you need help sorting out. It could have been your dad; or not. You and I have had these conversations already. You know where I am on this and that I empathize with you deeply.
But you are conflating Issues #1 and #2 by trying to "talk" to your dad through your Craigslist ads, which is just you throwing gasoline onto your own fire.
If you think he's smirking at you, why don't you just ask him. I know from my own thoughts on confronting my perp when he was still alive that he could always just deny it and you've got nothing to go on...
But have you talked to your dad, and told him how you feel and ask if he touched you sexually when you were young? He's already seen your ads, so there's no secrets. He will probably say no, but it might open up a productive dialog and line of communication with him.
So, to reiterate, I am not rendering a judgement as to your hypothesis that your father was your perp; I am only talking about controlling what you can control, which in this case, is your Craigslist posting.
I'll be just fine and dandy
Lord, it's like a hard candy Christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But I won't let sorrow get me way down.